An IVF application

Fate would have it that the day before I got the lupus call, I went to the gynecologist to apply for fertiliy treatment in Norway. With my 38th birthday fast approaching and 3 failed insemination attempts, it was time to consider IVF treatment.

In the wake of the diagnosis, I have almost forgotten about this application, until today. I received a letter from Rikshospitalet's Fertility Clinic. Rejection of referral. "I am sorry that we are unable to consider your application due to lack of information." The letter leaves me fuming. "MISSING INFORMATION?" I immediately fire off a question to the gyno's office regarding the missing information. Shortly after there's an incoming call. I am suddenly overcome by a vicious anger. All the frustration and disappointments I have felt lately are about to be  channeled into this particular phone call. I'm ready to rip his head off and give him a verbal abuse he will never forget. Fortunately, as I answer the phone, I manage to take a few deep breaths and calm my wild rage down to a mild irritation.

​It turns out that there has been a misunderstanding with the missing information and test results but this will be fixed. Due to the newly diagnosed lupus it will be better to update and resubmit the application. There's a sense of relief when I hang up, unfortunately this will not last for long. A few hours later I get a call back from the gynecologist. He has had a conversation with the fertility clinic and is calling back to inform me that it is unlikely that my application will be approved, due to the newness of the disease and my age. However, I am free to apply if I wish. I manage to confirm that I still wish to apply. At this point it feels like there's  an endless parade of bad news waiting in the wing. 

I have a fair idea of ​​what 2021 will look like ..