Pulling weed and energy thieves

The soil feels moist and sticks to my pants while I lie on all fours in front of the Jerusalem artichoke bed. Tiny, green leaves sprouting all over the vegetable bed. It's been a little over a week since I was here and weeded out the same green leaves, but here they are back again. Diligent, gloved fingers gently digging into the ground, trying to pull them up by the root. To make room for Jerusalem artichoke to grow big and strong.

It's kind of the same with mental energy. If you let the mental weed grow, there will be less energy left for the rest. So often it's spent on trifles  and nonsense. Like this week for example where I have spent an awful lot of time being annoyed by a letter that arrived in the mail. In the bigger picture, it is not the end of the world that the board has decided to remove my newly built flowerbed. But it irritates me a great deal. Being annoyed isn't always pointless. It made me sit down and write a proposal to the general meeting, but when it was done I should have just let it go. Instead, I have gnawed at it every time I see this letter. So for now, I have to deal with the same way as the the small green leaves, weed it away by hiding the letter in the drawer.

Some weeds require a little more work, like dandelions. It's not enough to poke around in the ground. The root is deep, and usually you don't get the whole thing out. No matter how deep you dig and how hard you haul, there is always a small piece of it left. A small piece that has suddenly grown big and pops up again at the wrong time and place. Like the fear of not being able to be a mom. That's a dandelion I have been working on a lot, and I'm finally getting to the end of the root. All the world's pondering, anger, tears and wishful thinking will ultimately not affect the outcome. And that's often the case with some of the things that are allowed to take up mental space. 

​Some people manage to see dandelion as more than just weeds, as something edible. Apparently it tastes good too. Maybe you have to do the same with the mental dandelion as well, make the worst case scenario as edible as possible ..